dont you hate it at church when people thing children should be seen and not heard.  If someone does that to my child I always remind them that they are our future and if we dont make them feel welcome in the end there will be no churchs or services.  Usually puts them in their place.  Now if my 2yr old is really acting up I will take her out.

For me being sick...well for about 5 months now ive had what started out the size of a little pimple is now 5x7, getting larger by the day and an open wound.

Had 2 biopsy's so far, been to 8 doctors and it seems the one I am with now who is in infectious disease narrowed it down to 3 things.  Skin cancer, lupus or sculaderma...all three have bad outcomes.

if skin cancer they remove the whole area, chemo and hopefully that will be it.

If sculaderma, the blood test taken today will tell what type...but was told today it will if not already be renal and turn into cancer slowly shutting down the kidneys, liver etc...right now it is the lung area and a mass is there.

If Lupus they believe it is a combination with the sculaderma..no cure and outcome the same.  UV rays are used to contain the area but depending on what kind will depend on as they say my life span.

I have my up and down days...area of the wound affects my breathing days, but IM watching what I eat, exercising and the only thing I will not give up is diet coke (LOL)..i will die with one in my hand !!

But im done feeling sorry and thinking of what will happen, Im enjoying everyday, still planning ahead and will worry when the time comes to worry.  My husband and children will be well off if anything happens to me and Im prepared for the worst and hoping for the best.

I was keeping a day to day journal about my feelings but some on MDD became critical etc...and so I dont do it as often but I do have a freewebs page that I will be posting pictures soon...stop by and you can read more about my life if you wish.

www.freewebs.com/qtpiemom

Take care, keep it real and there should be more men like you out there.

Dang...you have had an interesting life.  My two boys are adopted through the county where I live so I totally respect any social worker and know what they have to go through.  My one son was given up freely by the mother, dad was out of country and just signed his rights over.  Other son his mother fought like forever, but after 3 years as a foster child in my home he is all mine !!! BUt I accept his bio-family like extended family cause they will always play a big roll...grandma is even my avon lady (LOL) . They are both special needs and that was the downfall of my first marriage.

See you went on a walk and collected leaves and acorns...how about that..in the fall I like to do that with the little ones...shoot even the big kids get a kick out of it then we put the leaves on paper and paint the edges to make designs...corny I know but it is fun time.

If you still want to stay at home maybe take a coarse in medical coding or transcription.  I did data entry for a while at home, brought in 800 a month...not much but paid the rent at the time. I also do home surveys...that I do for fun and mad money now (LOL)

Ok have a good evening....you know your being a great dad so give yourself credit and for the flowers and candles..how great is that !! Your home sounds cozy..

My dad likes candles too.
Ahaha!

Dont you just love finding some place that suits your needs !!

I have really long hair and want to get it cut sooo bad, but waiting till after the 17th cause if I need chemo Im just going to donate it instead of waiting for it to fall out.  So I have been looking at wigs  (LOL)  Im over the image thing, now just teasing my husband about getting different color wigs...hehehehe hey why not fullfill his fantasy, have to make the best of every situation.

Have a good weekend with your family...your daughter sounds just as strong willed as mine...gotta love that in them

We all have life's lessons, some are just harder than others.

Thanks for the word of advice on my cravings....yes I love weight watchers, no complaints cause I eat like everyone else just watching portions.

Have a good weekend.

Here is a thought for you...your daughter has an imaginary friend...well I was told once by my pastor that children see things we do not as thier hearts and minds are that much more open. Kind of creepy, I know but makes you wonder.

My 2yr old will laugh and have conversations with her "imaginary" friend and I look at it as "hey" as long as this "friend" keeps it friendly and she is happy, not to worry (LOL)

Yes as they get older it does get harder..I have 2 -13yr olds and I long for thier imaginary friends to be back...they did not eat all my food, did not have to drive them around, listen to them argue at me, and kept the house clean...(LOL) so see there are ups and downs to all situations.

Keep it real and have a good holiday.

I had to laugh with you seeing RED when the kid made fun of your daughter...just today i picked up my son from school and this little girl was sticking her tongue out an calling my sons name....only her father was right there...poor soul had 3 kids, one son kicking his shins, another boy running around and this girl.  Being hotheaded myself I said EXCUSE ME..do you condone your daughter and her actions...he looked at me with shock...I just shrugged my shoulders, but that little evil child shut her mouth and put her tongue in her mouth (LOL)

As for writing a note to the teacher...that is perfect.  So many parents forget to say thanks, she will love it.

Your journal is not ...as you say Crap..it is life and believe me the more real it is the more people read...were so nosey (LOL)

take care